A Lampstand

I can hear the crashing of the seashores waves upon and empty sandbank with the night sky luminous radiant and full of stars. There are no people...only sand dust outnumbered upon the shore. The night sky full of bright shiny speckled colors. The moon resting upon the seashore. And there is a lighthouse in the distance like a lampstand shining in her place and to my left, firepits waiting to be lit. I ask myself, where have all the people gone. Can anybody hear me? And yet still, a small voice in the quiet distance. I lift my head up and I see a shiny bright ray in its beauty perfectly aligned. Can anybody hear me? Oh how much I have lost and how many tears I have cried. Like oceans collecting like dust. And, somehow waging war in the heavenly above. I can hear footsteps. Oh how I long to feel your arms around my shoulders. though I feel so alone and your wind brushes upon my back and my chest. Oh how I loved thee and lost thee but I will find you once more in a quiet still small space where darkness has yet still light to shine forever more in a place where the sun rises and there is no night or day. I reach my arm far across the distance and I find you. To my right a light flickering flame I once new familiar calling my name and I escape the loneliness and the empty cold space and my eyes follow you and catch you. I thought I had lost you and yet I find you again and I realize I had never lost you. I look to my left and there are my footprints and the sand pushes up under my feet and a cold oceans water rushes between my toes and feet and yet you have failed to pull me under. My foundation strong and standing firm and I reach out my hand and I find a flame, one flame and I pull it up towards my chest. Once again your beauty awakens my soul in this darkness and I try to let go of all of my anger and pain and those wars above my head and below my feet waging war against an enemy. I wear a sheer transparent cloak all the beauty covering me from top to bottom and my weakness so heavy and many and as though a voice, many voices, calling out from the sky saying here I am, look at me. The sky acquired a new star...I've been looking for you and there you are. How far you have walked, many miles, many mountains and there is no distance you can go apart from me. Where will you not understand and comprehend with me that I have never left you, not once. Though you have tried pushing me away I was still right there with you. Do you think, I am so weak that I would have just left you? I haven't left you not even for a moment.