The Window

As she tried to live with the battle in her mind......
She tried to live and find a place of comfort, a place...familiar. No place was found. She reached far and wide but there didn't seem to be a door. There was a window a distance away with a light that seemed to billow through and it kind of hurt her eyes. She tried to gaze through to see something but she just turned away because the harder she looked the more it hurt her eyes. She couldn't get out so she just stood against the window because it felt safe....
The girl grew tired of waiting and standing and her eyes hurt. So the girl closed her eyes to rest them a bit. But then it was too dark to see. She walked around with tired eyes, feeling for something familiar. As time went on her fear seemed to leave and she began to see in the darkness. But her eyes became used to the dark, they no longer hurt from the light. The girl soon forgot about the window with the light.
Eventually, everything she knew to be familiar wasn't at all what it seemed to be. She started to question why she could see in the dark when there wasn't any light. She became confused. The things that once seemed to make sense did no longer. So she decided to search again for the window with the light, where it seemed safe. As she looked, she grew tired.
She walked for so long and finally to her surprise she came to the window. The light wasn't too strong for her eyes. She could actually look into the window. But when she was able to look in, she was astonished at what she saw. The window was a mirror and the light she saw was herself. Suddenly it was familiar, she became aware of what she was. But now that she knew, she was sad. For the light had become so dim.

The Door

Now that she knew what to do, she began to walk again only this time with fervor and intensity. Things became clear. The things that once didn’t make sense now were vivid and defined. Every step was full of power…it wasn’t like before. The spirit so strong and vast it took over and stretched beyond understanding as it lengthened, the wisdom grew. The path was now so visible that the previous brilliance seemed small.

As she continued, she saw a door in the distance. It was clear but very far off. It was open but unreachable. She was determined to reach the door. She began to run very fast. She spoke in her mind to help bring her closer. She ran for so long she became tired. She stopped to rest and closed her eyes. Time seemed to stop. She began to think of a way to reach the door. She thought that maybe if she walked fast for many days she could reach it eventually but she didn’t want to wait. Many thoughts came to mind and everything was so real but she then fell asleep and began to dream…..

She saw the door in the clouds. She was so happy that she began to sing and when she did the most amazing thing happened, the music took the form of a river and poured out and soared towards the door and went inside. As she sang the river became so vast, she couldn’t stop it and didn’t want it to stop. As the river grew she felt an immeasurable love, once familiar. She was so full of happiness because she finally knew….

As she awoke to a familiar voice, "it’s nothing like before"...she finally knew how to reach the door.

Whatever It Takes

Confusion rattles my mind. Too many things to determine. Just standstill for a moment and consider. Now, stop thinking and remember. Love is how we understand each other. All of the concealment will unravel. But you know me, remember? I will stop at nothing to remind you. When you find yourself spinning, overtaken with mindless meandering. Just standstill for a moment and consider. Now, stop thinking and remember.

When you feel lost and experience emptiness, let me deliver you. Why all of the obstacles? So absolute, so powerful, I assure you. What do you realize about love? I do whatever it takes for you to grasp. Just standstill for a moment and consider. Now, stop thinking and remember. While confusion invades your thoughts and it wraps around and flees. Although heartache has grabbed hold of you and you wait for a turn daily. When that rope that you find yourself swinging on becomes a thin string. Just standstill for a moment and consider. Now, stop thinking and remember.

I will keep doing whatever it takes to call to your mind the love I have for you. You appear to have forgotten but I can taste the day you remember. Please don't let fear from all sides conquer your discernment. Do something for me, go the distance and breathe. Look up, I see you. Take another breath, smile and know that I am holding you. I will do whatever it takes for you to remember the love that we share.

Perfectly Flawed

Not perfect by any means.
Adrift in a mind of wonders.
Brokenness obscurely veiled.
Smiling so beautifully suffering.
Aching with boldness inside.
The absent colors surround.
Submersed in a sea of shades.
A lamp so radiant it enrages.
Despised because of the love.
Tear me apart some more.
I am ripe for tomorrow again.
Built to endure brokenness.
Created with perfect flaws.
Too silent and too colorful.
Mind too full to undergo again.
Absorbing every moment.
So unusual it startles you.
Never unnatural around you.
Passionately color blinded.
Traveling down a desolate road.
Never to run across you there.
Isolated in this desire it seems.
Preparing a heart for you.
No sense to gaze this way.
Perfectly flawed in every way.

Take This Heart

Please take this heart and stop its beats.
Unravel the pain that has been woven.
Please take back the cuts and bruises.
All the sorrow and aching pulses.
The scars covered up in layers.
Swallowing down the pain that creeps up.
It burns holes in my neck and throbs.

Please take this heart of mine.
It does me no good to feel this way.
I rendered it to you but you gave it back.
This burden is too heavy for me.
My feet are heavy and I wander slowly.
It beats rapidly out of my chest.

All these things I don't want or need.
You have no interest in this heart of mine.
Despite all the times I've told you.
It beats for you to live and love.
You never looked back to capture it.
Why must I have this heart of mine.
It does me no good to be without you.

This heart is tired of being wounded.
Please come and take this heart away.
I am tired of carrying it for you.
I never wanted to live this aching feeling.
I didn't give you permission to shape me.
You tore it up and bruised it.
You gave it back with missing pieces.

Every second that goes by It cries out.
Please take this heart back that you changed.
It absorbs the far-reaching sky and fills up.
It overflows with weeps and wailing.
It is too full to carry anything more.
It tries to break out and moans for release.
Please take this heart away from me.

Understood

I understand your frustration! Do I hear a bit of "over the top" protruding bitterness or just a smidge of unforgiveness? I stand to correct and unleash an uttermost and absolute outburst of strength and courage. I feel redefined and enlightened in the midst of the sorrow and pain. No love can be complete or understood without the first hand knowledge and experience of sorrow and pain.
This generation of souls are making changes so rapidly...if we had the time to stop and see. There are two sides to this story...No one can be blamed for the decisions that we make. People can find someone to blame all day but in the end...it comes down to the cold and bitter heart or the soft and gentle love.
These abrasive tones that words project reach beyond a distant cloud and goes even further and is heard. A soft and sweet sound, a voice, comes back and speaks.
Absolutely is the time to finally live again.

Blind Eyes

The blind eyes are tired and weak. The blackness blocks the soul and the heart weeps. The little things most important of all are too small for some to see....and for others no time is taken. There is a deep need for the box of glass to be shattered. We need peace of mind. The past is like a chain around the throat for those who live in fear...fear of love...fear of forgiveness..and fear of looking in the mirror. You must let it be break and walk up straight and be who you were meant to be....broken from the chains and alive again. That decision must be made to stand tall and make the right choice...and when you fall get up again. We don't know what's best for us only him who speaks, it is our choice to listen. Someone once told me that I hide behind love. In a sense, that is absolutely right. Although, I am not hiding. He is hiding me. And, yes He is love. So this means, I am in him. And by this, I am surrounded by Love. What would this mean? Everything. While many don't see the little yet vast important details. The little meaningless things are consuming everything. This life is gone in a blink and when you arrive after this life...what will you find? That you spent most of your time doing? When all the while you were loved and turned your face...in what seemed like a moment and you blink. That moment has become forever.....

I didn’t want to know

I don't want to know
The pain that you are feeling.
You are so special.
The world didn't take time for you.
You tried to explain.
You didn't know what words to use.
You cried many nights..like a baby.
I don't want to know
The pain that you were feeling.
You were so special.
The world treated you wrong.
You didn't say anything.
You bottled it up.
You cried many nights.
I didn't want to know
You left so quickly.
You shined like a star.
They didn't understand you.
You just thought quietly.
You needed love.
You got pain.
I didn't want to know
your pain.
R.I.P. Roy

I Am Not Shaken

I am not shaken by your words.
They have no authority over me.
I persevere and ascend beside love.
He welcomes me at every element.
This realm he has conquered as I will.
The love envelops me and I bear.
This being you cannot match.
My core longs not because of you.
My spirit loves more than it sees.
Don't you understand that your utters are dead?
I am bolder than I was a second ago.
The affliction made me sturdy.
The abuse and harm made me love.
Your strategy fell awfully short.
You presume to identify who I am.
You have witnessed nothing yet.
My support will ambush you again.
Everytime you trigger the dismay.
I will release you afresh and anew.
With greater force than before.
Eventually you will hunt me out.
But the fright will be yours apart.
It is my gaze you will scurry from.
Just a single promise is all it takes.
Yes that voice you have met.
The tongue that weakens your empty bones.
You tremble with fury and abomination.
But never again will I be shaken.
My roots are set on stone.
I do not desire to test anything.
The age is nearby in the heavens.
We will be face to face again.
You will plummet without end as I wait.
I am interceded for every instance.
Surrender as I am not shaken.

You Will Remember

You will remember what I've said. I tried so hard to let you know.
You still have time to make it right. Don't throw it away.
Your life is important. I am by your side. Those nights you can
hear me tell you, it will be okay. Just walk with me.
Let me take the pain.
You will remember what I've said. The day will come when you
will remember. I don't want you to have regrets. Please hear me.
Love understands suffering. I understand you. I have pain constantly
for you. If you let me hold you, I can turn the pain into love.
Pain and love are so closely tied together. Just hear me.
You will remember what I've said. You can't make it alone.
Your own strength will not last. Let me be your strength.
I will renew you. You will see in a different light, a different world.
One day it will make sense. You will see me. I can't bare to lose you.
I gave everything for you, even my life. I would do it again if I had to.
But, no need. It's already done. Once for all. Enough to cover all.
You will remember what I've said. I try so hard to tell you.
I know you hear me. I know it's painful, I've endured it also.
Again, and again, I endure it.
With you.

You will remember.

I Know

No explanation is needed.
I know you beyond reason.
Please see within my voice.
Thunderous words shake the unwordly.
You are extraordinary and beautiful.
I know the warfare you face daily.
Your heart is generous and weeps.
Please don't neglect your own spirit.
Your flesh attempts to take command.
You hunger and thirst for strength.
Be delivered from this place.
Your power is conditional.
Cry out for strength from above.
Love cries out to you and for you.
I know your heart, no explanation.
No misunderstandings, inspiration.
Your sight is clear but the fight is hard.
Your heart is good, your flesh is weak.
There is a time and place for everything.
You will know at the time of this place.
Hear the wind blow in the seasons.
You are loved, I know.

No More Fear

No more fear anymore. No more fear.
Can't you see, it doesn't matter if your there.
My spirit comes from his magnificence.
You can no longer feed anymore here.
I have developed and become strong.
Surrounded by the darkness, no matter.
The light engulfs me and floods through.
Those who are ready will receive.
Yes, I do see you in the shadows.
I don't need permission for you to leave.
But you cannot surprise me anymore.
I am no longer enslaved in that cage.
I have been delivered free by love.
The fear that is you, the black hollow eyes,
The cold grey flesh that I once touched.
I am sorry for you. You have lost.
The choice, why did you choose?
But fear is what you walk in everyday.
The darkness consumed you a many days
I am sorry for you. You cannot have me.
Nothing can separate me from his love.
I looked you in the eyes face to face.
You didn't even move an inch.
The fear you thought to give me,
belongs to no one else but you.
Your power is nonexistent to me.
You distract and suggest evil things.
It isn't even the evil itself that matters.
It's about the love that will diminish it all.
I will make it home with no more fear.
No more fear at all.

My Aching Soul

It boils over and out it comes.
Understanding comes in time.
The empty space fills regardless.
It reaches such a vast distance.
The life extends further breaking borders.
The light screams for your brokenness.
It cries an unceasing howl.
Recognizing the thirsty soul.
An unexplainable exhilarated sadness.
It aches to be in the same breath.
Trying to get through to you.
Never letting go of you.
It endures with infinite assurance.
Uninterrupted and diligently loves.

Open Space

Gray skies in front of me.
Blue shining through.
I soared as darkness came.
Lifted me up to you.
No longer in control.
Held me up with your little finger.
Rivers rushing through me.
No need to see.
Overwelming and taking over.
Shooting stars of living water.
Love so powerful I can't explain.
Just a slight taste filled me.
Changed me, made me.
Came back again differently.
I'm set in the beautiful colors.
The impossible layers.
Focused and clear now.
Tingling side effects.
Can't walk just learning.
Brought back a piece of this..
Love filled open space.

Searching For You

The light flickers and I struggle to keep the flame.
I can feel your spirit despite your space.
I discern that you remember me frequently.
You strenuously look the other way.
Why such loathing or senselessness concerning me.
Is it me? Or is it who I am? No explanation?
All I did was reveal passion to your sightless vision.
I behold your countenance. You are isolated and unresponsive.
You wander apart from your flame.
I persevere in my search for you but to no avail.
You pretend to reside buried away from me.
I will never cut-off my approaching embrace to you...
as I remain searching for you.

Downward Spiral Staircase

You look down at the ground.
The light shimmers off your face.
You are a light surrounded by dark.
Your beauty is unexplainable.
Everywhere I look I see your face.
As I awake, you disappear from me.
As you look down, I see you.
I stare and hope you see my reflection.
As you look downward you see nothing.
I try to lift your face up with my eyes.
You let the sadness consume you.
As I cry for you to see beyond the clouds.
With your hands tucked away.
No sense of emotion you show.
As your pain flourishes the emptiness grows.
The wind blows on your face.
You feel it blow by as you turn away.
As you walk further away and apart from me.
You walk a downward spiral staircase.
It seems easier for you to walk this way.
Your feet feel heavy as you try to lift each step.
If you are so afraid of me, why not turn around?
Walk upward from that downward place.

Why?

Why such a degree of separation?
So far away so much further from me.
The fire still a blaze within me.
Never to rest as it absorbs me.
Every time you meet that sky.
I am ablaze yet the world shifts.
The day fluctuates against me.
Can you standstill the rain?

Why can't you anticipate me?
The blues, grays, corals, greens.
Colors luminate against your soul.
You wander facing the dusk.
I witness you roaming, flowing elsewhere.
Please don't run after evasion.
Can you postpone please...?

Why don't you overhear me?
The tender tongue and wounded echo,
sharpness collides with your heart.
You appear to go deaf as I wail.
Don't you detect the storm in the tranquil.
Urgent crowded stinging complacency.
Can you consider me...?

Why don't you recognize me?
That void that you explore to occupy.
The private land that you neglect.
Is it unreasonable to cherish you...
My life is in front of you waiting.
You should yearn what I ache.
Can you unclose your eyes?

I know you exclusively.
I strive to supply love to the hollow,
but me you dismiss.
You attain and out it projects.
The others suffer it and anguish sobs.
If you could just let love inside.
You would be engrossed in brilliance.
The world would standstill and contemplate you.
Why can't you undertake life?

Why?

Dangerous Eyes

My feet capable and I envision.
I consider a choice and tones whisper.
Why in this stronghold need I be?
The eyes investigate me and the moment stops.
Dangerous my eyes are.
Please don't stare my way.
You will not comprehend what you follow.
Illumination streams aloud yet the night wrestles.
Strolling afoot endlessly.
The roaring noise and provoking unrest.
I pursue to no close to bring you to light.
Why do you smuggle yourself?
The world so selfish around me.
I can feel the ocean run.
I picture you in the colors.
I gasp in the massive radiance.
With every footprint bring screams.
In case you think of me approaching,
don't await me.
If I invade you, please disregard.
You won't accept me.
Just experience my swiftness.
The force moves me boundless.
I am stretched beyond that mountain of yours.
As I glance around,
please don't come across my dangerous eyes...
inside you, I maintain.
If you accidentally meet me,
don't face me.
You don't want to understand me.
Stay secure where you are.
In your world you breathe.
If you want your universe everywhere,
in case you want to understand me,
this place is unfamiliar.
Suppose you want to know something unusual.
Be careful of my dangerous eyes.

As You Stare

You endure apart and picture.
The memories never quit running.
Your spirit suffers with affliction.
You have torn yourself down considerably.
Destruction has come upon you with intensity.
Choose to stop the condemnation.
Please stop beating yourself into descent.
You are not so hardened.
Truly you are glorious.
You stay surrounded by desolation.
As you allow the pain possession of you,
struggling to disturb yourself from it.
But then you run across awakening.
Sense me remaining beside you.
You must rearrange to witness variation.
You have to uncover your heart.
Don't cut off your passion.
You are reflected upon in great numbers.
You hold an abundance of gifts.
You are so beautiful.
Love is the only resolution.
I mourn for your heart.
Know that I am here,
as you stare.

My Love

My love recites in rhythms.
Wide open the door.
Open hands reaching upward.
Surrounding become one.
I hear a song, just one rings.
The world so small in comparison.
Nothing can separate me.
So powerful, so right.
The connection so strong.
Smiling from the inside out.
Reaching upward to feel closer.
Tears running down my face.
It overwhelms my physical being.
Never changes, just strengthens.
If it takes forever, I will reach you.
Fills the desert, covers the land.
Will do anything for you.
Seek after me, find me.
Extend it to me, I receive it.
Change me and grow me.
Never to die. My Love.