The Experiment

What if every moment you were being watched, observed, and monitored even when alone? Would you care and would you change the way you lived your life? If everything I had experienced and done was recorded in a book, how would my life look? Every choice, every idea expressed and every decision made reflecting my heart response to any and every circumstance. So many unexplainable occurrences…I’ve been studying motivation and those speakers who have published books on the topic. You know those sweet books that promise a secret key or a lost treasure. The book you just have to buy because you know it will enrich your life. “Think and Grow Rich” By: Napolean Hill I recently purchased online.

It’s amazing how our lives are discovered each day and how we stumble upon things. During this time of studying on the subject of motivation, positive intention, and the Law of Attraction, the universe somehow knew and provided me with a long list of books for sale almost free—priced at the neighborhood library. Of course, “Think and Grow Rich” was found almost immediately after I had purchased it. Coincidence, I don’t believe so. And so I thought about this more and this belief about what you think about most, you draw into your life experience. Don’t ask me why, but I believe with all my heart this to be true. What if what we believed about ourselves and what we focused on really does come true? I decided to test this out more by keeping track like an experiment.

If I was determined to be a multi-millionaire and not willing to settle for the lesser things in life, I was extremely curious how my life would lead to this very successful rich fulfilling existence. Thought of wasting my life working a job I didn’t want to do or just wasting my time in general doing something meaningless scared the living hell out of me and drove me to find true success. Yes, I am thankful for the little things like food, a place to live, jobs, and the basic necessities of life but I had to have more and I knew there was more to this existence. I know what it’s like to have nothing, to have no one and no help and still have to find a way to survive and make it. This was another driving force behind me and why I sought out a rich life, one that could provide a way to accomplishing the dreams in my heart. That thing or things that made me flourish and happy.

This wasn’t just about proving those wrong who said I couldn’t make it or those who didn’t believe in me, this was about proving it to myself and providing a better future for my kids. How do you experience so many unexplainable things, gain so much and then try your hardest to forget most of it? Every little and big thing led up to this moment and time measured by what, a 24 hour day, a 7 day week, or a 365 day year? What is time…a man-made expression of something that cannot truly be explained, even if we count the seconds it takes for the lights to go out and come back on again, can we really interpret it and this very second already in the past.

About eight months ago, I had found myself in a situation that I had previously written about in my journal a year beforehand. What if I could prove this philosophy was much more than hear say? I wrote myself a ten million dollar check on August 25th of this year and I keep it in my wallet and look at it regularly. It’s now October as I write this and if I had a time machine that could peer into the future, I wonder what I would find. Today we live in a hyper-inflated informational age supplying so much at our fingertips. My room stacked high with books but I was completely driven to finishing my own. Tired of reading about everyone else’s successes but all the while thankful that I’ve had so much available to me—helping me grow along my own journey.